Sunday, May 14, 2006

Patient...Faith...Trust

Countless decisions are made each day. There are your everyday decisions which are usually not stress and headache inducing and there are those big impact, life changing decisions that will cause you to loss sleep and occupy your mind 24/7 and then, there are those perpetual, life changing decisions that you need to keep on making every few months due to the constant change in circumstances.

So how then do you go about making those big impact and perpetual decision? How do you evaluate the change in circumstances and determine if they are significant enough to change the outcome of a decision? Often times, you will pray for wisdom and weight the pros and cons of the different sides of your decisions. You will also pray for direction and patiently wait for some sort of divine inspiration. However, I believe sometimes, you just have to make the decision and have faith and trust that the path you choose is the right one for you because even though it is not the correct choice, God will still be able to use you or use the situation to teach you. When you look back in hindsight, you'll see that it is the right path because God made it into the right path. Like in the poem 'The Road not Taken' by Robert Forst, the protagonist only knows the less traveled path made all the differences "somewhere age and ages hences."

The Road not Taken by Robert Forst
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
two roads diverged in a wood, and I --
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Until Next time

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

A Stroll Down Memories Lane

It has been a week since I moved into Steve's. As I was packing and unpacking, I came across old notes, assignments, work reports, photos, and cards. As I looked through everything, it brought back lots of memories, both the good times and tough times. I never realized that I did so much and so much had happened in those five years. It seems like a short time and I only remember major events that it just jumps from highlights to highlights, leaving out the smaller but yet significant details which I was just reminded of. So, what's next you ask? I'll will venture forth with God into the wild, with his help and directions, I'll look for the thing that will make me alive. I'll tell you all about it when the I found it and when the time comes.

Until next time

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

la fin d'un voyage

[4/4]
It has been four days since my last exam of undergrad. The last exam was so hard to study for as with all exams but this one was on the last day and I lacked motivation. I really don't know how I did but I should be alright. So...this is the end...It still fells surreal that I am done. It feels like any other day. It hits me when Eric moved out of westcourt Friday of last week. This pass five years really flew by, I still remember the ups and downs as if they just happened yesterday. What's next, I don't know...I came in to university searching for an answer but I end up with more questions. I am sure they will be answered eventually but until then, I'll just have to have faith and wait.

Until next time

Sunday, April 23, 2006

Second Last Step

[3/4]

The third exam done on such a beautiful day. I think the exam went alright. I must say, this course, Clas 384, sci and tech of ancient Rome and Greece, was the best course I took in university and maybe it is just not engineering. I should have taken more cool courses like this one. That's one of the regrets I have. There are still so many interesting courses that I want to take and I miss so many lectures by cool and famous people just because I was lazy or busy. In university, the world comes to you but once you are in the real world, you have to find it. A life lesson would be to seize every chances you get and do all the things you want to do so you won't sit in your room one day and regret what you did not do.

until next time

Monday, April 17, 2006

Another Step Closer

[2/4]...I wrote my second exam of 4B about a week ago. I am not sure how well I did but I think I should pass. I have never been so stress before for an exam. There are 5 of us in a room in DWE and we each had a breakdown one by one. We are all freaking out cause we really have no idea what's going on in that class and if you ask me now, I still have no idea what went on. As we are all freaking out, trying to understands the materials worrying about what will happens, I was reminded that I had been selfish and not been faithful. I had been selfish in terms of thinking of only what I want and not really what God wants and faithless in that if I have truly surrender my life to God, I should not have to worry about what will happen and just know that whatever happens is for the greater good. As I study some more, I realized that this will likely be the last time where I will be studying with this group of people and it will be the last time I'll feel this helpless for an exam. I know that down the road, I'll look back and laughed at all this and really miss the experience and the company of those 5.

cont'd

Until next time...

Thursday, April 06, 2006

One Step Closer

[3/4]...Just wrote my first exams of 4b term. I remember the same time last year in Brantford...I was thinking that I still have lots of time. A whole year, one whole year...boy...did that year passed by fast, I had a great summer school term, got send down to San Diego CA for a week during my fall co-op term, went to classes for my last winter term and bam...here I am, one step closer to the end of my university journey...what has happened to my year? Why did it pass by so fast? What did I do during that year?...

cont'd

until next time...

Friday, March 24, 2006

Going out with a big BANG

Relaxing to "Try A Little Tenderness" by Michael Buble realizing that I have one more week of school left and a long list of thing due.

-Bio 2 assignments Monday
-Air 15% quiz Wednesday
-4th year presentation Thursday
-Bio project and presentation Friday
-Air assignment Friday

Not to mention my 4th year project report is due the week after...Boy what a bang it is going to be, from a scale of 1 to wicket, it is going to be sick.

On another note, I had my birthday yesterday, all in all, it was a really good day, Had breakfast with JT, Eric and Thomas. Went to orchestra @ UW at night and had a little celebration at Westcourt afterward. I have been expecting a pie in the face so I was on my guard. The confirmation that my pals are planning something came when I found out my classmates were going to orchestra too and 3 of my friends disappearing after orchestra. So, as I left HH, I saw 3 of my friends hiding in a corner. I start putting some distance between us. When I turned back to check, I saw one of my friend dashing over with a garbage back filled with cream, I dodged it and the next thing I know, there were 4 or 5 guys holding me down and I had flour all over me. One of my friend still have that garbage bag and is trying to pull it over my head. I manage to grab it from him and they scattered. It was a really good day, good breakfast to start off the day, got some work done during the day, wonderful music at night, dodged the cream but got flour instead, and cake at the end. Thx guys!!

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Pwned!!!

Getting pwned by bio!!

Thursday, February 23, 2006

Traveling Without Moving

Every time I am writhing a blog, I seem to be listening to Jamiroquai and this time it was his "traveling Without Moving" album.

So, it is reading week. I guess I have been taking it easy. I've been doing research on my ancient weapon of mass destruction that I need to build for my classical studies course while knowing I have other assignment due next week. I am sitting in the living room, rocking to the tunes as I read, drawing out the blue print in my head, imagining, how life would be like back in the Greek and Roman time. So, I decided to do a little traveling...Going back to the ancient time. What was the perfect Roman life style? How different was farming back then? Was sailing dangerous? How extensive was the Roman road network. How did they build a siege engine. How did the Greeks came up with all the ideas about the world and the different math theory that we still use today.

All of these questions were answered during my trip. The beauty of it was I never left my living room. Dive into a book and travel with your imagination. Traveling without moving. Maybe I'll run into you on my next trip.

Sunday, February 12, 2006

Virtual Insanity

Sitting at home right now, alone, cause the guys are at hockey. I am chilling to"Take a Message" by Remy Shand...having a conversation with the voice in my head...

voice in my head: dude, you should be finishing up that bio assignment and go to bed

me: don't worry, I am going to finish it, I just came back from the 3 hrs pre-study and the 2 hrs 4th year project meeting, give me a break

now "Fill Me In" by Craig David is rocking on my headphone...
voice in my head: you are weak dude, you fell asleep for half of the pre-study, WEAK!!

me: shut up!! Shut up!!! You know how stressed and tired I am, and come on, the prestudy leader was so soft spoken, she is like, sleeping music. YO YO YO, I just realized, the prestudy leader talks like Bill Lumbergh from Office Space, Ha haa, "ummm......yeah.....ummm....yeah..."lol.

As "Canned Heat" by Jamiroquai came on...

voice in my head: yo guy, I am serious here, you know how much crap you have to do?? You have nothing for that 4th year project of yours, two midterms coming up next week, and you also have to build that ancient weapon of mass destruction

me: "ummm......yeah.... ummm.....yeah...." hahahahaha, that is so funny. Yeah, that 4th year project is going to be the death of me if I don't get on it. Man, that's the thing that's stressing me out right now. I hope it works out at the end.

When "Virtual Insanity" by Jamiroquai started blasting:

voice in my head: well get to it! And dude, you are losing it, talking to yourself...

me: yeah, you know you are tired when you have a "virtual insanity" experience and talk to yourself then posting it on your blog

Monday, December 05, 2005

The Package

27 Let your manner of life be worthy of the gospel of Christ, so that whether I come and see you or am absent, I may hear of you that you are standing firm in one spirit, with one mind striving side by side for the faith of the gospel, 28 and not frightened in anything by your opponents. This is a clear sign to them of their destruction, but of your salvation, and that from God. 29 For it has been granted to you that for the sake of Christ you should not only believe in him but also suffer for his sake, 30 engaged in the same conflict that you saw I had and now hear that I still have.
Philippians 1:27-30

As Christians, we are called to live a life “worthy of the gospel of Christ”. The gospel and a holy life should be a package and when a non-believer sees this package, it should produce a change in his life. We are plates that the gospel is being served on. If we are in sin, it discredits the integrity of the gospel message. The gospel maybe wonderful but if the plates are dirty, who would want to touch it.

Am I clean? Am I dishes that God would want to use? Am I living a life that has a positive impact or is people going to reject the gospel as they look at me and my actions? Do people see the gospel live out in my life?

I myself am guilty of this. I talk the talk but I don’t walk the walk. I can remember on countless occasions, my actions were far from being worthy of the gospel. It hurts me to just to think back and wonder, if I behaved righteously on that occasion, will he have a relationship with Christ right now.

The message is mere ordinary words with out a holy life. So, ask yourself, what areas of your life are not clean and work hard on changes the sinful ways.

Our Journey

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

The Unanswered Question

At the end and beginning of every term, there’s one question that always baffle me. The answer for this question has eluted me for quite a while: What is the purpose of all this?

When I was applying for university, I had no idea what I want to major in. I figure once I am accepted into one, I’ll just try different things until I find something I enjoy. Being the Chinese parents that they are, my parents wanted me to enrol in something that can give me a career. It is either Comp sci or Eng and hence my eng journey beings. Applications were sent to UBC, SFU, UT, Mac and UW. With a mid 70’s average, prospect of my eng career seem grounded before it even took off. I remember praying one night, asking to be accepted in eng at one of the university. Being the unfaithful me, I did not expect any mail from UW. But to show He was listening and to teach me a lesson, an unconditional offer for Enviro chem eng at UW was received. I was reluctant to accept since I did not plan on leaving home. However, God start closing doors on me. Out of all the universities, UW is the only one that accepted me with a finial average in the mid 80’s. I begun to ponder then, what is the purpose behind this? With the question in mind, off to UW I go.

I was hoping I would be able to answer the question after first year. As first year draw to an end, the question is still unanswered. I did not put much effort in my studies and as I barely pass each year, I realized that God wants me to finish this program. But then why?

Is it so important to have answer to the question right now? Am I too impatient, searching for the answer instead of faithfully waiting for God to answer when I am ready? If I know the answer, will I stray away from God’s purpose? Is that the reason why this question is unanswered?

As my last work terms ends and I begin my last school term, I am still waiting for the answer. You would think I will remember something that simple, but I was reminded once again as I ponder, try to answer this question myself, that everything happened for a reason and even though I might not understand the purpose behind it, I have faith that God has the best intentions and that he will reveal to me in due time.

Sunday, November 27, 2005

Movie night in "loo

Since that I have 3 weeks left in the boring of a town know as Oakville, I started my waterloo moving process this weekend. It is true that there are always something happening in loo and this weekend is movie night at steve's. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory is the movie of choice. It is known that this movie is a lot darker then the old school one and Johnny Depp played the character really really well. There was good turn out for the movie and the highlight was a quote from Vanessa.

after the movie...
V:I am afraid of chocolate now

But then again, nothing can beat time spend in fellowship with fellow brothers and sisters in Christ

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Why do guys give girl's name to their cars and instruments?

About half a year ago, I asked people on my msn list this question:
“Why do guys give cars and instruments girls’ name?”
It is really interesting to see the different point of view people have in regard to this question. What’s your point of view?

Answers:
Boy 1
uh, because the items are usually thought of as females...even females give female names to their stuff

Girl 1
hahahahha cuz it's be weird if they were guy's names cuz guys love their cars and instruments and take good care of them...... they love them like they would or rather *should* girls?? hahahaha.

Girl 2
haha idunno.. cause they looove em? like they looove girls?

Girl 3
ummm i don't know. cause they want to name it but naming it a guy's name it's kinda gay?

Boy 2
if u prize ur car so much u dont wnana call him bob…i love you
bob


Girl 4
maybe they like calling smthing "theirs"?

Boy 3
coz a guy doesn't want to be playing a male instrument, running his hands all over the thing

Me:
does it apply to cars?


Boy 3: i dont' want to be riding/driving a guy

Boy 4
umm... not sure... i know historically they've named boats after females, or rather call her 'she'…hmm... and saying he's beautiful just sounds funny


Boy 5
errrrrrrrrrrr, they love it, hahahahaha

Girl 5
cuz it gives them excuse to use the word "love" without feeling gay,so like "I love nancy my car". A guy can't say "I love bob my car"

Boy 6
mmm.... i guess cuz they started the trend w/ ships way back. The idea was that a ship had a sense of grace and beauty which they associated w/ women

Boy 7
guys usually give their cars and guitars guy names yo

me:
really, i think they give them girls name, maybe it is a montreal things that they give them guys name

Boy 7:
no man i think most guys give their guitars and cars guys names… maybe it's different on the Westside


Girl 6
umm.. cause they no woman in their life so they are desprite and want one, ta da, someone to call my own, my BABY.

Girl 7
i dunno... maybe they think of those inanimate objects as their girlfriends? or something like that

Girl 8
hahahaha..cause it's supposed to be their "girlfriends"

Girl 9
it's true they do.. perhaps it's because in today's secular society women are treated as objects just like cars and instruments?!?

Girl 10
um.... haha.. what is this for? i am guessing maybe cuz guys love their cars and instruments, so they can relate better to them if given a girl's name... can you "love" something that has a guy's name if you were a guy?

Girl 11
because it seems less gay? it's a love thing right? Most straight guys love their tools and girls...lol. personally i think it's sexist...but i guess i would give my guitar a girl's name or a unisex one.

Girl 12
because they value them

Girl 13
i'm guessing cuz they're you babies and you take care of them and spend lots of time with them. it's like pouring all the affection you normally would on a girl to an object and pretending it's a girl...but if you think about it that way, it's kinda disturbing!

Girl 14
i think think many guys think of their cars/instrument as a companian, hence a girl name but then if that's true, what about guys who name MANY of their things girl names?

Me: ah, that a good answer, er....i think those guys are loney and need to find someone special

Girl 14: do they subconsiously desire multiple girlfiends/wives?

Me:
er...no idon't think so, that would be wrong


Girl 14:
from a Christian stand point yes, but there are plenty of men who "bao 2 lie" out there. I think traditionally tho, many objects are given female names because women, like land or equipment, fall under the category of "properties" for men. and this naming ritual is almost a demonstration of ownership. Sad, but true in the old days...or still true in many places in the world


Me:
it is sad, i thought it all started with nameing boats b/c of their grace and beauty


Girl 14:
but what about calling your ancesteral homeland "motherland"? In that case, i think it's given a femininity because it represents something that nurtures, protects and sustain, so i think all together, this represents a mixture of types of relationships men can have with women. The mother is a figure that will always protect, care, and love. a wife is, for some guys, a companion and a partner. but for some others, women are just something men "own"

Sunday, November 06, 2005

New blog same randomness

I have finially decided to switch from xanga, for some reason, I just don't like xanga, maybe it is the ads or jst the layout. I hope I will be posting somthing more in depth and meaningful on here but there from time to time, it will be complete randomness