At the end and beginning of every term, there’s one question that always baffle me. The answer for this question has eluted me for quite a while: What is the purpose of all this?
When I was applying for university, I had no idea what I want to major in. I figure once I am accepted into one, I’ll just try different things until I find something I enjoy. Being the Chinese parents that they are, my parents wanted me to enrol in something that can give me a career. It is either Comp sci or Eng and hence my eng journey beings. Applications were sent to UBC, SFU, UT, Mac and UW. With a mid 70’s average, prospect of my eng career seem grounded before it even took off. I remember praying one night, asking to be accepted in eng at one of the university. Being the unfaithful me, I did not expect any mail from UW. But to show He was listening and to teach me a lesson, an unconditional offer for Enviro chem eng at UW was received. I was reluctant to accept since I did not plan on leaving home. However, God start closing doors on me. Out of all the universities, UW is the only one that accepted me with a finial average in the mid 80’s. I begun to ponder then, what is the purpose behind this? With the question in mind, off to UW I go.
I was hoping I would be able to answer the question after first year. As first year draw to an end, the question is still unanswered. I did not put much effort in my studies and as I barely pass each year, I realized that God wants me to finish this program. But then why?
Is it so important to have answer to the question right now? Am I too impatient, searching for the answer instead of faithfully waiting for God to answer when I am ready? If I know the answer, will I stray away from God’s purpose? Is that the reason why this question is unanswered?
As my last work terms ends and I begin my last school term, I am still waiting for the answer. You would think I will remember something that simple, but I was reminded once again as I ponder, try to answer this question myself, that everything happened for a reason and even though I might not understand the purpose behind it, I have faith that God has the best intentions and that he will reveal to me in due time.
When I was applying for university, I had no idea what I want to major in. I figure once I am accepted into one, I’ll just try different things until I find something I enjoy. Being the Chinese parents that they are, my parents wanted me to enrol in something that can give me a career. It is either Comp sci or Eng and hence my eng journey beings. Applications were sent to UBC, SFU, UT, Mac and UW. With a mid 70’s average, prospect of my eng career seem grounded before it even took off. I remember praying one night, asking to be accepted in eng at one of the university. Being the unfaithful me, I did not expect any mail from UW. But to show He was listening and to teach me a lesson, an unconditional offer for Enviro chem eng at UW was received. I was reluctant to accept since I did not plan on leaving home. However, God start closing doors on me. Out of all the universities, UW is the only one that accepted me with a finial average in the mid 80’s. I begun to ponder then, what is the purpose behind this? With the question in mind, off to UW I go.
I was hoping I would be able to answer the question after first year. As first year draw to an end, the question is still unanswered. I did not put much effort in my studies and as I barely pass each year, I realized that God wants me to finish this program. But then why?
Is it so important to have answer to the question right now? Am I too impatient, searching for the answer instead of faithfully waiting for God to answer when I am ready? If I know the answer, will I stray away from God’s purpose? Is that the reason why this question is unanswered?
As my last work terms ends and I begin my last school term, I am still waiting for the answer. You would think I will remember something that simple, but I was reminded once again as I ponder, try to answer this question myself, that everything happened for a reason and even though I might not understand the purpose behind it, I have faith that God has the best intentions and that he will reveal to me in due time.
